Reaching out

[Kat]

Hi Kia,

Sorry I haven't been in contact for awhile - been taking it a day at a time.
I've had some bloody awful days, and some not-so-bad ones.

I have a new part time job - 20 hours a week. Only just started, but I'm loving it so far. Nice to have something just for me. I still have my daughter at creche full time, so I get two days a week to myself too.

I'm still struggling with motherhood; and in particular I feel very confused as to why being a mum is so hard for me. I just feel like I want to escape from my family all the time. I don't understand why I can't enjoy time with them more.

I have another appointment with my psychologist next week, and am hoping to discuss these things with her.

But as always, your support really helps Kia. I re-read your notes on my worst days, and they bring me some comfort. Thank you.

Kat

[Kia]

Hi there,

Good to hear from you. Taking it one day at a time is just fine. Sometimes that's all we can do.

Recovery can be such a slow burner... a few steps forward... several back. You have come a long way though. 

Great to hear about the job and that you are enjoying it. You never know, it may just be one of the turning points you need. 

I'd definitely encourage you to keep seeing the Psychologist. Did you ever find out if there are maybe any PND support groups near you? Some women find this sort of thing really helpful... others not so much. 

I remember you saying right at the beginning that you were on some meds? If you are still on these are they helping, or maybe another visit to the GP to re-assess might help? GP might also be able to refer you for other counselling support too? Just some ideas.

Being a mum is just hard sometimes. Please try not to beat yourself up about that. Take some time to think about all the things (no matter how little they seem) that you did right today... I bet there are loads. 

Keep going... and take care of yourself. Hugs. 

Kia x